Desember 2025

Selasa, 23 Desember 2025

The day when my trigger says hi again

I've been really good enjoying my days when my trigger says hi again. This time with a little signal before. But apparently, again, the trigger is bigger than how I thought it would be. It is really exhausting to be like this, but I guess I am still working on it.

I'm just there, struck by the lightning once again. But not being reactive this time. I am too exhausted. So I just went out of there and took my time alone. Sit there with a small tear in the corner of my eye. Broken more like the inside than outside. Disappointed, again.

Do I still set my expectation too high? I don't know.

What does it mean to me? Is it worth my tears again? I don't know.

I know someday I can live my live better than this. I can trust myself better than this.

You are getting better, 잘했어 Mia.

Jumat, 12 Desember 2025

The day when I walked to the main gate (and somehow ended up in Inohana Castle)

It was a bright, sunny day with beautiful mixture of white cloud and blue sky. I got bored with my usual route biking to campus through the South Gate. So I though today I wanna walk to the Main Gate. My building just in front of the South Gate so I rarely walk through the Main Gate. But today I felt like to.

It's tiny me over there.

I called a friend while walking but he didn't answer. So just walk with a music in my ears. Kinda in a good mood today. I even wore a skirt. lol.

Midoridai was, as usual, kind of empty. Only when the trains came and went did people get a bit bustling. The rest of the time, it was pretty quiet.

I had a mission to go to the student centre near the Main Gate to print some documents at the printing machine, when I suddenly bumped into a friend of mine. We talk a little and then say goodbye.

After I finished with the documents, I walked to the lab. It's really hot and humid, summer in Chiba.

Looks like in a good mood right.

It doesn’t matter whether you’re pretty or not. What matters is that you feel pretty. Tsaaahhhh. I felt that way today. A good start.

I spent the next hour in the lab, planning to go out somewhere earlier than usual. So I had lunch at Matsuya and took a walk afterward.

Go to the new sports store (Ishii Sports) at Junnu Building. Walking from Chiba St to Chiba Chuo. Tried this Makgeolli (막걸리) for the first time, and I didn't like it, it was too sweet.

It was really a random walk looking for some good park to sit. Walking again around Chiba Minato, and walked again acrossed the other side, and then suddenly... I arrived at Inohana Castle.